post break ups
Published 7 months, 4 weeks ago in My life.Hey all
I think you all probably wil be sick of me after hearing so many of my stories of my relationship problems. So instead of typing what i want to say i’m going to write it out in a poem (it’s just lots of words, but don’t rthym like normal poem do lol)
Where is your heart at this moment of time?
Unknown, because it’s not where it was
Right now it’s just lost in the mess
Lost in the world of break ups
Would it ever be found again?
Uncertainty is the answer
Can it ever be back to it’s original beating way?
Only time can tell
It once was full of love, full of happiness and full of passion
But right now it’s hurt, It’s empty, it’s hollow, it’s a cast
Would it ever heal again?
Only time can heal the wound
Feels though emotions are out of control
Feels though having an out of body experience
Not sure what’s happening any more
Can’t decide any more
Can’t see the way out any more
Only using others as companion, to fill the empty space
However it only last for short amount of time
Scared that emotions might take over and make wrong decisions
Still waking up in the morning feeling empty,
Feeling the day is another boring day, and just repetitive
Wondering when saying “I’m okey” is it really true?
Wondering if the face is hinding away the tears, the true form of emptiness
Putting a smile in front of friends, is it really the real smile?
Is everything I do a fake scene?
When can this end?
When can this pain go away?
When I can wake up and be happy that it’s a new day?
When can I can smile and not feel fake
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Good poem, and well done expressing your feelings in a creative way. Not all poems rhyme… in fact most “real” poems these days don’t. Either way, good on you for sharing your feelings with us.
I wish I could give you a “just be happy with the freedom you have and the love of your family and friends” speech, but I can’t. In all my experience, the best thing to do is go on the hunt for a new boyfriend. Obviously, if you’re still incredibly upset it might be a good idea to wait a few weeks, but something bright and new to hope for and strive for could be just what you need. It’s okay and perfectly natural to feel sad after a break up, but everyone needs something good to think about and look forward to, and as far as I know, waiting won’t make it happen.
I found my boyfriend (it’ll be our one-year anniversary in 9 days!) on www.rsvp.com.au
I hope your heart mends and everything works out really well. Keep us posted.
Relax, you think he was the one yeah? He wasn’t; there’s someone out there better than him - just look at me for example
,but you won’t find me - I mean him, if you don’t let go of the past. How does it go again? It’s better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.
Give it a some time. Everything’s gonna be all right.
Lady Chaos and Blowfly both gave you exceptional good advice.
When I’m depressed I use the same distraction methods I use when child minding, on myself. I deliberately stop myself in mid thought and self talk my mind move away from the depressing thought and on to something all together different. Sometimes when it is really daunting I allow myself 5 minutes of intense “worry time” about what the concern is, and then I move away from it when my self imposed time limit is up. The thing about thoughts and emotions are they are just that, thoughts and emotions and they can be changed, if the reward for doing so, means something better than being in the moment you are living.
That rsvp sounds like just the distraction you need girl…..As the man says “everything will be on right’ and in six months time, you’ll probably laugh at these painful memories of the here and now!
Hey both,
Thanks for your advice, atm i have my highs and lows, there are times were i really want to call him and just talk to him like what we did when we were together, but then i know at the back of my head i can’t. Then there is times where i’m so peaceful in my circle that i really enjoy it, and can’t believe that i’ve forgotten that feelings. What i mean is freedom, freedom to do anything and not need to worry about what he thinks and not need to think for him. He wasn’t a bother to me, i loved every bit of it, but now that i’ve broken up, i can do whatever i want and whenever i wanted.
Right now probably not seeking any boyfriend, just want to chill out for awhile, and enjoying how my life was without a boyfrient which was a long time ago. Maybe i’ll find another when i’m least expected which was what happened with my ex so i let fate decide lol.. it’s so me lol..
I’ll keep you guys posted don’t worry.
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