Hey all
I think everyone will be sick of me by now, all i talk about is my relationship, but i got no one else to talk to atm, everyone is busy with their own life and relationships that don’t have time for me to talk to them.
This is the first break up i’ve had, and i’m struggling to handle it, i feel like i’m been really fake atm, i try so hard to hind everything from my friends, i appear to be okey, appear to be actually dealing with it and actually getting to the end of the break up session. However the truth is that i’m dealing with difficulities, how can i forget everything when it’s a relationship that lasted for 2 half yrs nearly 3 yrs on the 19th. How can i just ignor the feelings ihave, how can i just stop calling him?
Everyday i go to work, on the way home i think of him, i think of random things about him, the memories we shared and had together. At work, i work my ass off and not a thought comes to mind, then work ends, i think of him again, and till i go home, i write my diary on my laptop, and look at the pictures we took back then, we looked so happy together, our laughter looks so natural, so in love. Yet the longer i look at it, the more i want to cry and tears still do slowly crawlling out of my eyes.
I question why is so hard to get over this relationship, why can’t i act normal, why can’t i be happy? Why can’t i feel happy inside, it’s not like life isn’t good for me, it is good, but i’m just not happy, i once knew what happiness was, but right now i only understand what emptyness means.
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“i once knew what happiness was, but right now i only understand what emptyness means” … this seems to sum up your problem really well.
You feel sad because you and your boyfriend were very happy together in your relationship, which is a VERY good and healthy thing. The fact that you are sad about breaking up indicates that you are a genuine person who was in a relationship with someone whom you really cared about. There was no lies, falseness or hostility bubbling under the surface, and that is so much more than many people can claim about their relationships. A happy relationship is a good experience to have no matter whether it lasts three weeks, three years or fifty years.
Of course, even good relationships can sometimes fail… sometimes it is just not meant to be. I try to trust God to guide me in relationships - I assume if one ends that it is only because God knows that that person is not right for me in the long run, even if I thought they were.
Anyway, it is perfectly natural and healthy to feel upset and lonely after a break up, but I would recommend not letting the sadness go on too long. You say that now you only understand what emptiness means, because you miss having someone special in your life… so rather than looking back into the sunset of your previous relationship, look forward into the sunrise of a possible new one. It is okay to grieve a break up, but moving on and looking for a new beau is a much more positive step which will take your mind off your ex, and you may find things are even better that you’d ever thought possible with someone new.
The past may be bright, but the future could be so much brighter.
Once again, I recommend trying online dating websites when you feel ready to find someone new.
Thanks for sharing your feelings… it is nice when someone is honest about what they feel and willing to hear other people’s ideas.
Best of luck and keep us updated on how everything’s going.
You will be able to compare your next relationship to this one. Its what life is about. How lucky are you to experience what you have to date. Not everyone has that oportunity. So what is the plan? what will you do to take your mind off this? Or are you going to inflict yourself with this pain over and over ? Is that what you deserve ? Am I harsh ? I hope not, just matter of fact, life will go on, and you dont know what is around the corner. Keep us updated on how youre coping.
To both ladies
I love hearing both replies, even though i have not met you two, but however i do feel a lot of respect for both of you, because i feel you both are very kind and give me the best advice, from the bottom of my heart i say THANK YOU ^^
Anyway winnierose you are not hush, you are saying the honest truth, and the answer is NO i wdon’t want to be in pain over and over, and YES i have stop been in pain and crying, i’ve stopped. I no longer feel sad any more, i think i am enjoying my single life again, which i have to say i once did enjoy. My life is still moving forward and i think i should move with it, and not stop and wondering where the road is taking me.
Ladychaos, as you said i might find better things if i stop been said and look the other side, this relatioship has ended, therefore now i can look forward to a new relationship that just might be around the corner. I’m sorry to disappoint you but i’m not really into the online dating thing, i just wanted to wait and see if God can help me let me meet another guy just like how i met my ex, i like to see the guy in person before dating then just have a picture in front of me and hoping that is the right guy i’m talking to.
So ladies, my plan: Talking Life as it is, walking with life hand in hand, and taking my time with relationships, what happens happens, and i will be very happy if another guy would pop in to my life again. However for now i will enjoy my single life, the life where freedome is the center of the all. ^^